Nagging Negatives

I get it... I have twins and I will hear all sorts of comments about them because of this fact. I truly do wish though that more of the comments would be more on the positive side and not the negative.. I understand that not all twins and other multiples are well behaved in public. I also understand that having multiples is hard work. I realize that many people are glad that they aren't me (a mother/parent of multiples).

I do realize that even having 1 baby is hard work (and secretly I sometimes wish that I had 1 kid at a time too). Must I hear this almost every time I go out (even when I'm out with only one kiddo or by myself) ? Do they think that I am not sick of it? So I've started to retaliate..

• When I get asked "Are they twins?", I've started to say... "No..they're triplets...oh no I left one home alone".
• When they say "Double Trouble", I reply with "Twice as Nice" or "Double the Love".
• When they ask how I wound up with them... I so want to say 'I had infertility problems and after many years of trying we finally tried IVF and got lucky..do you need my doctor's number?' but I do usually just say "I guess I got lucky".

I've also been much more aware of people who are out with their own multiples and making sure that I comment positively or commend them on how great a job they are doing (even if the reality is far from that for them).

So you might be wondering why I am blogging about this tonight. Well something happened tonight while I was out getting groceries with Lily. We had scored a Car Shopping Cart (I've only seen 2 at our Stop n Shop and they are usually being used by kids that really don't need them) and Lily was having a great time sitting in the car section and turning the steering wheel and beeping the horn. She was also leaning out every so often and I was having to remind her to "Please sit up Lillian Grace" when she would do it. She only threw her hat out of the cart once (and luckily someone retrieved it for me). As we were leaving though someone commented about her (I can't even remember what they said) and I commented that we were heading home to Daddy and her twin and they were basically floored and commented about them being Double Trouble. People who don't even know us or have met Anna just figured that if Lily was acting up (she was at that moment) that her twin must be just as bad or didn't deserve the opportunity to go out with Mommy too. In truth, Lily was having a not so good day and it was easier to bring her with me than to leave her at home to have a fit with Daddy since I had taken the opportunity to do some last minute shopping for the holidays with my mom and was gone for a few hours today. These comments just aren't fair. So if you've made it this far into my rambling on this posting, please be kind to parents of multiple children. We need to hear it.

Back to Reality

Yep we are HOME... and back to all the things that are home... and that includes my knitting projects..

I got an email this past week that a friend of mine will be at knitting group on the 27th to pick up the 9" squares that we have made for some charity knitting.. That was an "Oh Sugar" moment because I have been working on one (1) but with all my sock knitting I haven't been working on it... so after knitting group tonight I made the time and finished it. I even worked in all the ends too like she asked.. and then I contemplated my sock and it's pattern... which lately is throwing me for a loop lately.

I did really great on the first pattern part... 6 rounds/rows make the pattern and after 8 times of the pattern repeat I was finally at the 5.5" mark that I needed to be at so that I could start the second pattern part... this one has 12 rounds/rows that need to be repeated somehow.. here's what is getting me confused... the 1st round has a decrease in it as does the 7th round.. Do I go back to round 8 and do the repeats from there?? I looked ahead to the next section of the pattern and according to what I can figure out, I'm supposed to have 72 stitches (36 + 36 = 72 ) total and I already have that number of stitches on my needles.. and my work to this point needs to equal 10" or 25.5 cm . I'm only at 7" after doing the 12 rounds in the pattern. I'm thinking that there will be a trip to my local knitting shop in the morning to help me figure this out.

I can't wait to start trying to figure out the heel while doing Magic Loop... where did I put my white flag of surrender???

Slow and Steady Progress

When Lee and I were in Key West almost 4 years ago for our anniversary there was this guy with trained cats that did a show at Sunset (I can't remember if I've talked about him before). Anyway we got a kick out of hearing him say to the cats... "Hurry up Take your time" over and over. I swear this has totally become my mantra lately.
I want the next month or so to hurry up and get here so I can get the apartment packed up (we don't have a move in date yet) but at the same time I want to enjoy the time that we have. Have I confused you yet??? I'm in a weird place lately. I feel like I'm making progress in some areas of my life and stalled out in others. The PPD is getting better. It sounds stupid but I read a book about being a new mom that was written by a new mom and it totally made sense to me and I feel like I'm coming out of that fog but then entering another one with Lee and our relationship. It's too personal to put here for everyone to read and comment on. I will say though that some days are great for us and then there are the days that I find myself going down a road that is rocky at best. As most things in my life go I have absolute faith that things will work out for the best and am hoping that noone gets hurt unnecessarily in the process of figuring things out.

Feeling so sad

Nothing is majorly wrong.. but today was not such a good day for me.. I'm so definitely feeling the whole hormonal pregnant woman thing today. I want to cry, scream, rant, rave and so not be an adult today but I have to.. there are no other choices left. Maybe over the next couple of days I'll have enough prospective to be able to post something about how today was such a bad day for me but right now I'm feeling so wrung out and all I want to do is cry but knowing myself the way that I do, I'll probably wind up cleaning something to relieve the frustration and pent up energy that I am feeling at the moment, which is never a bad thing to do. Especially here.