Back to the hospital

I was at the hospital again on Tuesday... after being there Monday night for 4 hours I called my OB Tuesday morning and spoe with him about whether I should go to work or not.. He told me that as long as I felt fine (and I did) that I could go but if anything popped up during the day then I was to call him pronto..

So I call my supervisor and tell her that I'm on my way.. go to Toyota, return the loaner car, pay for my car and am on my way to work... well it must have been too much for me since I started breaking down in the car. Got myself to work but within 2 hours I was basically in a lot of pain and eating was not helping like it had on Friday.. so I called the doctor and told him in between my tears what was going on.. He told me to get to the hospital as soon as I could.. get there and the nurses there hook me up to the monitors along with the babies.. the babies are doing great.. Me not so great... turns out I was having contractions so next thing I know I have an IV and am getting a shot of Terbuline and am being sent to get a vaginal u/s to check on my cervix and look for any dilation. Luckily there was no dilation and my cervix was still very long.. so I caught a nice nap (woken by the phone since Lee was panicing that he hadn't heard from me since I hadn't talked to him in hours and my cell phone was forgotten in the car - there were 4 very anxious calls from him). After talking to him I called my mom and told her where I was and she came by right away to be with me. I was at the hospital for 5 hours..

I spent all of Wednesday at home, basically doing nothing (ok a little cleaning but it's hard for me to veg out these days). Lee allowed me out to go to knitting group since I won't be there for a couple of weeks at least due to classes that we have already scheduled.

Today (thursday) I am headed back to work and then I have a scheduled visit to the hospital for a NST at 5:30pm.. should be a fun day since I will want to chat with my supervisor about how much longer I can be there. I mostly sit anyway but still it's a long commute for me at this point anyway and I'd much rather be closer to home if possible.

I'm all belly

I'll let the picture speak for itself... (taken Thursday night at 28wks 1 day)

But as everyone seems to be telling me... from the back you totally don't look Pregnant at all.. You're all Belly...

Today was not my day

It was bad enough that I had a slightly rough day at work today and did my best to stay at work as long as I could.. I didn't feel that great the last couple hours of work... so when I climbed into my car to go home I had no clue what was in store for me.. I knew that I needed to take my car in to the dealer to get some maintainence done since the light came on yesterday while on my way to my Uncle's to see my Cousin's 3 week old baby. I had even called this morning to make sure that I could get it done today.. well on my way there from work there was a ton of traffic and I was being a good girl staying in my lane and keeping an eye on the traffic in front of me.. well out of nowhere the lady in the lane next to me (4 lane highway) decided to go from her lane to mine.. except that my lane wasn't moving and she was Behind me. Can you guess???

Yup she hit me..

So we both pull over to the breakdown lane, I get on my cell phone to the police, the State Police arrive, the officer takes both of our information, fills out his form. Meanwhile the lady is apologizing over and over and saying that it was HER FAULT. I assure her that I am fine but inform her that I am Pregnant. That made her feel worse.. So I finally make it to the dealership and give them my car to do the whatever thousand mile maintenance that they need to do.. they tell me that it will be at least an hour maybe an hour and a half. I call Lee and my mom to tell them what happened and where I am. I also call my OB to find out if I should go to the hospital for observation.. I knew the answer.. I just needed to know for sure. So after talking to my mom I go back to the desk and tell them that since I had just had an accident that my OB wants me to get to the hospital asap. They wind up loaning me a car thinking that i'll be back by 8pm (when they close). Ha... I get to the hospital, change and then they tell me that I'll be there for 4 (four) hours.. at 7pm the dealership calls... your car is all set.. come on back.. I had to tell them that I'd see them in the morning since I'm not getting released till at least 10pm.

While at the hospital I get blood drawn and find out that my borderline anemia is not doing well. I also get an U/S done (turns out it was a BPP) and the girls are perfectly fine though extremely active. My nurse turns out to be someone I knew in HS and she took very good care of me.. kept bringing me water and ice and came by every so often to chat since for a while there I was the only patient on the floor. Turns out that she had twin girls 8 months ago, lives in the same city as me and she did IVF also.

Not sure if I am going to make it to work tomorrow.. I need to call my OB (it was after hours when I initially called and a different OB was on call) to tell him about the accident and the anemia and also get his opinion about if I should go to work tomorrow.

Warm gooey anything to anyone that got this far in my saga.. since I haven't eaten since lunch today.. and need to find something to eat before I climb into bed.

It all started with a kiss....

Lee and I have officially been a couple for 15 years now as of today and I am always amazed at what our journey together has been over the years so today I thought I'd take the time to share some memories.

We met at the Harvard Coop in December 1992 (he thought I was older and I thought he was younger than our actual ages at that time) and he spent approximately 3 months trying to convince me that he was totally wrong for me.. Stubborn person that I am, I spent those 3 months proving to him how right we actually were for each other. This all culminated in February 1993, Feb 14th to be exact. I was over his apartment and I forget what we were doing but the next thing I knew I was being kissed by Lee. It was such a Romantic Moment for me. It took us another 9 days to figure out that we should stop being just friends and move on to being a couple. That was February 23rd 1993. The rest they say is history. We dated for approximately 6 years, got engaged and were married by April of 1999. We've had our fair share of ups and downs in our relationship over the years but we've both always agreed that we truly would not be able to start over with other people should anything ever happen between us. And now 15 years into our relationship we are finally about to start our greatest adventure together... Parenthood in May 2008. Oh and btw... for anyone keeping track, I am now the same age that Lee was when I met him. I that truly scary or what???

Happy 15th Anniversary of our Relationship Lee... I love you..

Let Mommy Sleep

Ok so I'm officially 28 wks today.. (it's past midnight).. Two more weeks and I'll feel safe since I have a friend who was PG with twin girls and delivered at 29 wks. I wish I could sleep tonight.. a nap is not an option today.. but my bladder was screaming and then I couldn't get comfy again. Hopefully election results will do the trick.. but Mommy needs some sleep.. soon... girls please settle..

1 down 3 to go

I'm referring to my newest knitting project... baby booties for the girls.. one set will be white with pink and purple areas and the other set will be white with yellow and blue areas (but still very girly). I'm currently working on the second bootie of the first set.. then I'll start on the second set. They are quick and fun.. ok the first bootie took forever but that was because I had to learn some new skills as I went along. The second bootie is going much faster. I can only imagine how quickly the second set will go.

In other news... everyone here is fine and doing well.. I can barely believe that I will be officially 28 wks PG on Wednesday.. How can that be??? That's 7 months.. the girls will be here before I know it and we are so not ready. They don't have a room or anything since we are still in the apartment. Guessing that I'll be doing quite a bit of cleaning up in the next few weeks to get ready. Oh also... I can't believe how big my belly has gotten... I swear that when I look down at the belly that the view really doesn't change much.. but when I am near a mirror I'm always shocked to see how big it looks. No wonder everyone is giving me a wide area to walk in at work and otherwise. I can barely get up off floors by myself anymore and tonight after dinner I had to have Lee pull out my chair so I could get myself out of the chair without getting stuck.

Well it's way past my bedtime.. and Lee left the computer and TV on when he came to bed.. I figured it out when I could hear voices coming from the living room.

Today I feel Icky

Not sure why... I had a nice day.. I went and got my hair done for the first time since November. I had them take an inch off for health.. I then went to my mom's and from there we went to the mall (I was supposed to go with a friend but she bailed on me once again). It was a nice jaunt out since we went to BRU also (Franny Claus strikes again). But I was soooo tired when we got back to my mom's. I drank my tea and then got all comfy on the couch and passed out while watching TV. I napped for about 2 hours. Mom even went to the library and came back and I was still asleep. Finally got home and I feel icky for some reason. Lee just gave me some juice and some cereal and I need to attempt to make some dinner since Lee is too busy watching a movie to even help me out with that. Heck he's not even dressed (and yes I know that it's a little past 8pm). Could someone please kick his butt for me.. my legs just don't reach anymore like they used to.

Oh and a quick pregnancy related thing.. I can't see my feet anymore. I know they are there since I'm able to still walk but I haven't seen them in a while. I can see them whenever I sit or lay down but I sure do miss being able to look down and see them without having to bend a little. Oh and since I can't see my feet, getting laundry done is impossible especially with Mr. I'll help you but only on my time table Ringen living with me.. I swear the cats are more helpful than him right now. I don't mean to complain about him so much but it's hard not to since I'm slowly becoming less and less able to do anything for myself. Getting up from a low position (like the floor) is impossible unless I have something to pull myself up with or Lee is around to help me. I have to give Lee his due though.. Last night I wanted to take a bath and relax and he came and checked on me many times.. he even heated up 4 pans of water for me and poured them into the bath water and then when I was done he helped me out of the tub and into a nice fluffy towel. He even pulled back the covers for me on my side of the bed and left me chocolate and water along with a book that I've been reading. It was so nice.. but I fell asleep moments after getting into bed..

Hook 'em

No this is not a post about UT- Austin... I wish it were...

Instead it's about my appts today... I'm copying and pasting.. sorry but I'm too tired to type it again and there's laundry to fold...

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Appts Update and Advice needed

and I am so wrung out (but I think that's more from watching election results)Had my u/s and all seemed well till the Peri came in.. she took a look at Baby B and kept looking at something over and over. finally she said something.. I don't remember the term that she used but there is a bend in Lillian's cord and there is a very slim chance (she admitted that she was hesitating to say something but opted to be cautious) that Lillian could become stillborn so I'm to start going to NSTs every week starting at 28 wks (I'm 26 today). I think I went numb even though she said the prognosis is good and it's a very very slim chance of this happening. She asked if I had any questions (which I didn't right away since I was still processing the news). I then went to my OB appt (and GTT) and told the OB what she had told me and he decided to have his receptionist call the hospital to get me in ASAP for NSTs. I start them TOMORROW afternoon 1x a week. After the appt I went into Boston to meet up with Lee for lunch. It broke my heart to even tell him this news especially after I shared the most adorable little baby face pictures with him (they no longer look like aliens, they look like real babies now). I am not exactly scared but I am worried since I have no clue what happens at a NST. Please fill me in (since my mom had no clue)... oh some hugs or prayers might help too. I'm not an overly religious person but I need all the good thoughts I can gather. TIA.

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I've since found out that the NST is that I'll be hooked up (hence the UT reference) to 3 monitors tomorrow.. 1 for me for contractions, 1 for Anna and her heart rate and 1 for Lily and her heart rate. Then I sit back and relax and wait for them to move on their own and it all gets recorded and once they get what they need I'll be released till the next week's appt. Maybe I should bring my knitting to work on or a really thick book to read.

I passed the GTT btw... but am borderline anemic... I get to add Iron pills to my daily pills of PNV and Colace. Ain't my life fun..... not.

I so wanted a NORMAL pregnancy.

99 days to go

I am so excited since I have less than 100 days till I officially meet the girls..

Tomorrow will be a busy day for me and them...

7:45am U/S appt

9:00am OB appt and GTT (1 hr test)

Lunch with Lee in Boston

12:45pm appt in Boston

7pm Breastfeeding class

I'm nervous mostly about the GTT... hope that I pass it.

I'll update sometime tomorrow

Miscellaneous Stuff

I sometimes hate Sundays.. why you ask? Because it's usually the day of the week that Lee's brother from CA calls in regard to their mom. Lee is usually able to get through the calls and I've taken to listening in on the second line so I have all the information too. After these calls are over though it's a whole different ball of wax and I just don't know what to do anymore for him. I try so hard to be there for him emotionally and hold him while he emotes but it's getting harder and harder and since I've already been down this road with my Nana (and countless other relatives) it breaks my heart too even though I must be strong for Lee. Why must life be so gosh darn hard at times ??? Why can't it be easy answers most of the time? (please don't feel like a response is needed) I hate this road with a passion. I really do. I hate seeing the people that I care about so much hurting. I have this need to make it all better somehow but I know in my heart that I can't fix things with a kiss or a hug. Today it really didn't help that at church the minister asked us to pull up a treasured memory or snapshot of our grandfather. I was practically in tears when I tried to pull up a memory of my Papa (the only grandfather I knew) and with the exception of his death (great 1st memory to have), I came up blank and then my mind slightly wandered to my Dad and how much he'd be loving these babies of mine to be and how he would be one of the greatest grandpas (or Papas) ever. Which then got me thinking about what if anything I'd have to tell my baby girls about their grandfathers (since both of them are gone now). I'm sure that Lee will have his memories and thoughts to share about his dad but I couldn't even begin to think about what I'd say about my dad. Where would I ever start and when the heck would I ever end? I actually think at some point they'd be telling me to stop talking about him. Maybe this is the WHY as to why family and traditions are so big to me. Why I make it such a big deal to spend time with my family (this includes Lee's family) whenever I can. Why I don't mind being the Family Historian and keeping the Family Trees as up to date as I can (I actually worked on it for 2+ hours tonight). I need those connections since I feel that they make me WHO I AM. Heck of a way to define myself.
Maybe I'll just chalk up tonight's tears and woes to the ever present Pregnancy Hormones that are constantly flowing through me lately though that's not much of an excuse.
Guessing that I'm going to need my glass of Sparkling Cider tonight more than I thought.
The Patriots just lost... Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

This trend must STOP !!! Please..

ok I can deal with Lee snoring and it keeping me up but now that the girls kick (oh boy do they kick)I'm no longer a happy PG lady.. the pee breaks coupled with Lee's snoring and now the kicks are killing me. I swear it's like the babes know that mommy must pee and hey look the bladder is empty.. more room for us.. let's boogie. I truly would not care if 1) Lee did not snore or would move to the other room (please) and 2) if I could find a comfy position to sleep in. BTW the recliner we have is out.. I can't get comfy and my back can only take so much these days. No wonder I felt horrible at work on Thursday and had to leave early and then took a 3.5 hr nap once home. Speaking of naps.. I better get one today before the Super Bowl starts.. otherwise I will be a very tired PG lady that gets denied the priviledge of watching the Patriots reach 19-0 with their 4th Super Bowl win in 6 years (the streak started in 2002 with Super Bowl XXXVI). Bad enough that once again I'll miss the parade due to work obligations.

Oh and I think my cousin had her baby... I thought my uncle was going to call me.. Maybe he did and I missed the call. I'll give them a call when it's a decent hour.. but it's killing me to not know. I thought I was on The List .

A very good day indeed

I actually had a really great day today... First off Lee let me sleep in till almost 9am.. Heavenly.. especially since the babies woke me at 4am for a pee break.. Then Lee and I went for a drive today and it didn't involve the cemetary at all. He actually drove on real roads with other cars. He's still extremely nervous about the other cars coming at him but he's making progress. I have to commend him on his driving. It's going great. He totally needs to work on the confidence though. He made 2 minor mistakes but he's learning. After 40 - 45 minutes of driving he headed for home, parked and we switched places and then went food shopping together.

I later went over my mom's to do some laundry and relax ( I almost got a nap). Once she got home she told me that she'd been to BRU and confessed to being the one who's been buying off the registry already ( I found hard evidence in the laundry room and my old room). She also confessed that she has been looking for the perfect outfit for the girls to wear home from the hospital. So with very little prompting we headed out to the mall and found the perfect outfit for the babies to come home in. Luckily they were on sale. My mom is a very happy camper now.

We also had a nice dinner together once back at her house and nice chats about babies and their care and how the heck my brothers and I ever survived without carseats (we were each brought home basically in mom's arms in the car). We also reminisced about my nieces' as newborns. It was a really nice talk.

When I finally got home with my clean laundry, Lee suggested playing some board games.. That's my favorite thing to do right now.. I lost both games but I had fun and that's what matters.