Marker is in...

Well it's finally in... the guys at the cemetary came through and got it done on Monday. I went up today with flowers since I needed to see it myself. I have to admit, I thought I was prepared and could do this alone.. Ha.. though at least noone was there to witness my small breakdown when I arrived or to hear my muttering as I arranged the flowers over and over till in my mind they were perfectly arranged. I spent a bit of time there just sitting and being and enjoying the quiet of the cemetary.

I had brought a dozen roses from me and a special rose each from the girls.

It does seem somewhat weird to me to see my name on the marker too. It's my final resting spot also so I'm going to have to get used to it. Now I just need to find some time for the girls to go up and visit Daddy. That one will need to be coordinated carefully though since I'm going to be needing back up and support for that visit.

In other news the girls have been asking for Daddy more lately.. Anna is convinced that we can build a block tower high enough to Daddy and keeps trying to build really tall towers before they fall over. They also are somewhat convinced that when 'Daddy come back' that Mommy will be happy... I think they've seen me cry a little too much lately.

I also spent a few days going through Lee's SciFi Books.. I currently have 9 boxes of them (disclaimer that most of the boxes are diaper boxes).. and then today I cleaned out his side of our closet.. I haven't touched the closet in the hall with his t-shirts yet... that one will be the hardest to do and will take me a long time to decide to do. No rush...