I think I'm back..

I've been pretty quiet for a little bit lately.. totally understandable I'm sure with all that I am dealing with everyday since Lee passed away. Tonight I was able to get the girls basically to bed on my own... Go Me... I made myself sit in their room with my back on the door and basically tuned Anna screaming next to me out and held Lily to me while she eventually fell asleep on me. I need more nights like tonight where I am able to get them to bed ON MY OWN.

Yesterday I had a bad day with the girls and eventually called Grandma to rescue me so I could go and see my knitting friends. I actually even got some knitting done too.. slight blip on my sock with the pattern row but what the heck.. it's a design element at this point since I'm not going to unknit my progress from last night. It felt so great to be knitting again. It had been just about a month since I was even able to knit at all since I was too upset to even think about knitting even though I usually had it with me just in case I felt the need to actually do any knitting.

I'm slowly getting all sorts of stuff done that needs to get done. I went to look at Grave Markers today and I just about had a breakdown while there. I need to go up to the Cemetary and look at the markers that my family already has up there and see if I can attempt to get something that is similar if not a total match.

I'm also realizing that although I am getting things done, there is a big list of stuff that I need to do that I have no clue how to do or go about doing. Such as some of the utility bills that only have Lee's name on them. I need to make the time to get those changed to just my name. Thankfully I have time to get most of the stuff that is on my lists done. As my therapist said to me the other day.. 'How do you eat an Elephant? One bite at a time.' So that is what I will be doing. Tackling things one bite at a time until I have done everything that I need to do.