Has it been a Year already???

Today has been a hard day... my horoscope predicted a bad day... I should have listened.. ugh... I'm not going into it... too depressing and I'm already depressed enough... cause one year ago today was my last day with the Toddlers..

I can't believe it's truly been a year.. some days it feels longer and other days it seems like yesterday.. It had started out as a fairly normal day (though it was raining so we had to go to the playroom instead of outside).. the kids were doing well, no one had gotten into trouble (including me).. and it was hopefully going to be a better day.. (kid got bit the day before and I got a warning that anything else happened I was out). Then we went to the playroom and the kids were playing somewhat nicely.. or as nicely as 10-12 Toddlers can play. I was guarding a door and Stacey and Jessica had most of the floor space covered.. but as usual weren't truly paying attention.,. I was busy making sure that noone tried to escape on us.. and my attention was on the kids nearest me.. then it happened.. the same kid as the day before got bit over a walking toy.. argh... I was so upset i had to excuse myself and run to the ladies room so the kids wouldn't see me cry or hear me swear.. composed myself and went back to the playroom to help get the kids back downstairs and tell Patty what had happened.. I was quickly taken to a seperate room and told to wait and then sent to get lunch and go to the other site to wait for the Director to deal with me. It was a LONG wait.. finally at approx 3:30pm I was told that my employment was over. Go back and turn in your stuff. get your belongings and say goodbye to the kidlets..

That was a year ago..

I often wonder about the kids and how they are doing.. most of the kids that were in that room are now Preschoolers .. or have moved away. I think about visiting but know that it would cause a major disruption.. I tried a year ago to get another childcare job but it didn't happen for me.. I'm back to working in an office setting.. which I like but I so miss the kids..

this all doesn't excuse my actions today on a board I frequent.. but it is a part of how my day went today..