My anklet socks are moving and grooving along.. I got the entire heel flap done today on the first sock.. hopefully (before I go to knitting tomorrow) I'll be able to turn the heel. If that happens I'll be so happy..
I also cut my hair... I have no clue how much of it came off but it feels so much lighter.. I almost feel like a new person.. or at least one that hasn't had to go through as much as I have lately.
The biggest change... at least in my mind... is that Lee's marker is being installed this week. I'm not exactly a fan of this change because it means that Lee being gone is real and I really don't want it to be real. I want him back with a passion. I want that to still be an option.. even though I know that it isn't an option at all. The girls keep asking about Daddy and saying that they want him... I feel like a robot saying that Daddy isn't here anymore... they can now add the part about how Daddy was very very sick and then he died all on their own...
I wonder if someday I will wake up and have him next to me again... and this will all just be a really bad dream.. I so wish it could be that simple... that I could chat with him again. We used to have some really great late night chats. Guess I'll chalk it up as another thing that I'll miss about him.
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