Minor Rambling about a Minor yet Major event

I happened to be in the elevator at work the other day and was chatting with someone about something and I think I mentioned the kids and then mentioned that I'd lost my husband 3 years ago and then paused and changed that to 3.5 years ago. Holy cannoli's (small people here are slowly learning to read and I must be better about my typing out bad words) how did that happen? How has it been 3.5 years? Sometimes it feels much much longer and other times it feels like I basically just lost Lee (time wise not emotion).  When he first passed I marked every month... it's been a month, it's been 3 months. Oh wow 6 months. Now I barely notice that the 11th of the month is here again. Heck today is the 25th and I missed it by 2 weeks. Oh well.

So I have been growing and getting past a lot of my emotional baggage when it comes to Lee but at the same time I'm still sensitive when I tell people my reality and I think I frustrate and bewilder them when I laugh off their condolences now. People it's been 3.5 years that is 42 months. Am I supposed to be in mourning forever? I'm older, wiser, stronger and able to move on better now. I've got better stuff to do than to muddle my mind with grief when there is so much living to do. Lee wouldn't want me to be a puddle of grief for the rest of my days and it would be very sad commentary on my life if I let myself do that.

Sing Me Home

So I bought and just started a new book. It's entitled Sing Me Home and it came out 3 years ago and I was told that it's a great book and I should read it. I kept forgetting about it and it was in Hardcover then and I try not to buy hardcovers since they can be $$$.

So fast forward to the other day and I was at Target looking for a birthday present for a school friend and decided I needed a new book.. so I grabbed it (in paperback less $). I'm barely one or two chapters in and I can tell that it's going to 1) take a while to read and 2) going to be a book that stays with me.

I'm glad that I'm reading it now and not 3 years ago.. I couldn't have handled it then. Heck I might not now either but I'm going to try.

It's about a music therapist and she's PG and loses the baby and ... i'm only 2 chapters in if that and I have no clue where it's going yet but I have an idea via the summary on the back. I think it will be good but there might be lots of wine with this one or music since it's hitting me on so many levels already.

In other news there's been so much happening here.

First grade is going great and I'm finding a balance between 2 classrooms and working and sending the girls to after school 2 days and having Grandma with them 3 days.

I've been doing great at my new position so far. Still not trained yet but that will happen. Working has turned out to have some extra benefits for me which I am liking so far and attempting to explore yet be careful about how I go about things. If there is news I'll share it but will keep things low for now since that is easier.

Lily has very recently lost her two front teeth. She looks adorable and I'm eagerly awaiting Anna to lose her teeth also.

Not sure what else to say or report so I guess I'll end here for now..