Update on Me 2 years later

So I was just on a site that I used to frequent quite a bit and realized that I hadn't really updated too much about life lately..

So here we go... You all mostly know about the big move from Malden to Melrose that happened almost 2 months ago (it really doesn't feel like it was that long ago already).. but I haven't talked about a couple of big decisions that have happened lately.. First off I'm no longer wearing my wedding rings.. It was truly time. I took them off maybe a week or two after I moved.. mostly because I'm trying to move on with my life. I'm not sure what is going to happen but I was ready to do it and I want to appear more available than I did when I was still wearing them. I had a long talk with a couple of trusted people before I did it. I admit it did feel weird at first to not have them on and I even tried out wearing my Claddagh Ring that I had found while packing for a couple days but since I'd never worn it without being "taken" it felt weird to wear it as "available" so I took that off too. Now it feels ok and normal to wear nothing on my ring finger after having something there practically 24/7 for almost 14 years.

Secondly and somewhat linked to the above.. I'm starting to date again. It's really weird to be back in the dating world especially when it's been 20 years since I've actually "dated" or tried to start a relationship and this time I have 2 kids to consider besides just me. I have a really good friend at my church that I thought would be a good match for us since we all really like this person a lot (and still do to be honest) but it wasn't to be unfortunately. Though as a first time out of the gate relationship it was a good learning experience to figure out what I truly want. Maybe further down the line I can try that relationship again. We'll see. I did join a dating site and it's hilarious the types of guys that are out there looking and thinking that I MIGHT be interested in them. My 2 favorites so far were the 23 year old who offered me a massage (um NO) and the 20 year old that called me a MILF (let me know if you need an explanation on that term) which was nice to see but my gosh I could be that guy's mother with the age difference and Ewwww.  Not going down that road at all. Hopefully I'll eventually find someone for me and eventually have the girls meet this person when the time is right.
There are actually 2 possible guys that I've been chatting with and hope to meet soon. We'll see if either of them pans out. Stay tuned..

T Minus 8 days..

So in 8 (eight) days something really big is happening.. Something that I've been looking forward to and dreading at the same time. My BABIES will be turning FIVE YEARS OLD .  How is that even possible??? How is that 5 years ago at this time I was so done being pregnant and just wanted these kids out.. It doesn't feel like it's been 5 years at all.. Five years since I finally met the little ones that had taken over my body and made me a very happy person... Five years since Lee and I tried to figure out 2 sets of names just in case the ultrasounds had been wrong and we really did need some boy names to go with our girl names. Five years since life went topsy turvy for the first time (the second time would be 2 yrs and 11 months later)..

Along with counting down to their birthday I'm starting to countdown to Kindergarten for them. I think the official first day of school is August 27th.. I haven't made any countdown charts yet for that (too much time for 5 year olds to grasp) but know that we will.

So how are we celebrating this monumental birthday??? We're going to Disney... in 7 more days...  That's right we leave the day before they turn 5 years old.. that way we can wake up to being 5 in the Most Magical Place on Earth.. plus I think that they get a wake up phone call on their birthday from the characters.. which should be really awesome.. I can barely wait myself..

More later...