Kindergarten Looming

Apparently sometime between now and the last couple of years I blinked.. and something happened.. my babies grew from little itty bitty babies that needed me for everything into almost big kids who are going to be heading to Kindergarten in September.

I knew that this was going to happen. I just am suddenly not feeling all that ready. The girls are excited and I feel ready and if they were allowed would go to Kindergarten tomorrow (ok on Monday). What is making me feel so not ready for Kindergarten... I went to a Kindergarten Info Session last night and I saw many mommies and daddies that I haven't exactly seen in a small while. We all met for the first time when all the kiddos were babies that we could carry in infant carseats and put them on the floor together to interact as best they could. Over time there were playdates, birthday parties, and random meetups at the park. Last night though we all filed into the auditorium and listened intently as the school principals talked to us about their buildings and then the Kindergarten Curriculm was outlined to us along with the Registration process. Then they let us ask our questions.. We had a few then they sent us off with papers with some FAQs about the process itself.

I went home (ok to my mom's) and one girl was sleeping and I couldn't believe how much she looked like the little baby that I held not so long ago and I started feeling sad since I'd be sending her and her sister out into the world in just a few short months. I got melancholy and weepy at work today as I kept thinking about how quickly my babies have grown and how much their Daddy would be loving this time in their lives. They are both potty trained (with the occasional accident), are very chatty, seem to be so smart and are extremely funny.

I really hope that there is a program of some sort for the Mommies who thought they were ready to send their kids to Kindergarten but are reluctant to truly let go of those little hands and trust that their babies will be ok in a classroom filled with so many other kids and a couple of teachers. I'm betting that I won't be the only Mommy fighting back the tears as her babies enter the classroom, but I know that I'll also be fighting those tears because their Daddy isn't here to shed those tears alongside me and help keep me calm and  distracted while the girls are in school for the first day.

Even typing this all out is making me weepy and needing to get the tissues, and this is just Registration. The first true day of school is still 7-8 months away and I think that I will be doing my best to not only keep them little by snuggling with them as much as possible but to get them ready for the independence that they are going to need to have once they cross the threshold into the Kindergarten Classroom and become school kids.

I think that's enough rambling on this topic for the moment.