Thoughts

Just thinking today... hard to think that a year ago is when I talked to Lee's doctor at MGH and she told me what was happening and what could happen. She was so kind to me... explaining everything and answering all my questions. She even took the numbers for Lee's brothers so that she could help with those phone calls. It still amazes me that they came out so quickly to see Lee and be here for us.

I also was watching the girls today while they were playing and noticed how well they (usually) play together. How big they are getting.. they aren't my babies anymore.. they are getting taller and wiser and are so smart. I try not to blink too much these days since I don't want to miss a moment of this time with them. Their personalities are really blossoming lately and they have been doing and saying so many funny things.

One Year Later

I'm posting this 2 weeks early... then again the world officially cracked on March 28th 2011 and was folllowed by the worst 2 weeks ever.. I still remember the details of each day that Lee was in the hospital and eventually the Hospice. I remember so much. Sometimes it doesn't feel real still. Like I'm going to wake up someday and it will all be some really awful dream that happened and that Lee will be here next to me still. Or that someone is going to reveal that this was all some really elaborate April Fool joke. I know the reality. I know that Lee really is gone. That it's all up to me now to raise these girls of mine. I can do it.. I've been doing it for almost a year now. I just sometimes wish that Lee was here to see how big the girls are getting and how well they are doing. We miss him so much..