A look back

A New Year is here.... finally...

I can probably sum up my feelings for 2011 in just 2 words... It Sucked..
I spent the majority of it in tears and doing things that I never dreamed I'd have the strength to do. Things that I will be doing for the rest of my life.

I said Goodbye to Nana for the last time in January.. and hoped and prayed that I wouldn't have to do that again any time soon.. someone else had other plans for me. Three months later I said Goodbye to the love of my life... a couple decades earlier than I ever thought I would.. thankfully I didn't need to do any more till November when my MIL died also.

2011 wasn't all bad.. I learned that I could lean on my friends no matter what and that they will be there for me... I gained some new friends (mostly widows).. and once I regained my balance.. the knowledge that I am a very strong and resilient person (though I still cry alot)..

I am glad that 2011 is over... I'm not exactly looking forward to 2012 (or any year without Lee in it) but I'll make the best of the situation that I am in and keep going.