Still here

I keep forgetting to blog but I've been busy... those that follow understand.. or at least I hope that they do.

I finished the book that I was reading last time I blogged.. it turned out ok... I then started to read a book that my friend wrote. The name of the book is Eden Lake.. it was really good. You must read it.. it's that good. It was a great read for me... I also finished the Lace Socks.. they look really great.. I might be biased though

So what else is happening in the world of Cheryl ??? I made the final payment on Lee's marker today and got to see what is going to look like. Now I need to wait for the phone call telling me that it's been installed.

The girls had their 3 year pictures done over the weekend... I posted a couple of pictures on FaceBook but here's one for here..

I was amazed that Lily not only wore her glasses but kept her hair in the ponytails that she asked for.. I wasn't too surprised either when on the way home she took the ponytails out.

What else... we went to our first swim party of the year yesterday and I truly missed Lee not being there with us.. my mom went with us instead... I doubt I will ever have her come with me again to any of these events... it didn't go well for me and I really couldn't enjoy myself since I had to keep my eye on her too.

At least the girls had a great time..

Untitled Again

I love reading books and as of late I haven't really had a lot of time for that.. though one of my favorite authors has recently come out with 3 more books in a series that she writes.. so i bought them and have been reading them.. I'm currently on the last one. The main character has just found out that she has Ovarian Cancer and her romantic interest in the book has just married her and told her that He will be with her for better or worse, in sickness and in health.. bla bla bla. and during the ceremony scene he looked at her and said Forever.. and it's hitting home so much for me.. I was supposed to have forever also... why didn't I get that? I did get 18 years of Love... 12 years of wedded bliss ... 2 years and 11 months of being parents together to our beautiful girls.. It's so NOT FAIR... Am I being punished for something I did when I was younger by the big guy upstairs? Or is it some stupid Cosmic thing that I don't yet know about or understand? I feel so freaking selfish lately.. such a freaking drama queen if you want to go that far. A friend of mine last night told me that it will get alot worse before it gets better.. I'm only at the almost 2 month mark and she was telling me that from 4 to 6 months is really bad and then it will get better. I guess it's good that she told me... since I really don't remember much from when Dad died 10 years ago... I don't remember the pain being this bad.. Maybe I've blocked it out.. I just know that it hurts something awful right now. I'm guessing that it will eventually get better just not yet..

Knitting Update

So I've been insanely focused lately on all things Lee, Cheryl and girls here and I thought that I'd give a somewhat quick update on the socks... They are progressing nicely when I have time to work on them.. I had to take a break from them while Lee was sick since I could not concentrate on anything but Lee and his health and what was going to happen and how to deal with it all. I've been back working on them now for a few weeks mostly while at knitting group on Wednesday nights and sometimes when I'm at the toy store and it's been slow or there isn't anything else to do while there. Hopefully I'll be done with them soon. I'm approaching the Toe but it's slow going at times. I am thankful that I rewrote the pattern out with all the repeats marked for myself so I know how much knitting I need to do.. and that I kept my notes from the first go round with sock #1 for when I start to question myself.. That happens alot and today i actually zoned out while knitting the pattern round (needle) and did a Row 3 when I should have done a Row 2. thankfully I realized it and was able to fix it rather quickly.. the knitting ladies and dude will be proud..