Easier than I thought

Tonight I had what I thought was going to be a hard conversation with the girls at dinner. Anna started it for me thankfully. We've had pictures of both my Dad and Lee's Dad up for a while now on the wall by the kitchen table plus a picture of my Dad in a nice frame that a former co-worker had given me a while ago. Tonight Anna pointed at the picture of my Dad in the frame (taken just a few days before he died) and asked "Who that?". I told her that it was a picture of her Grandpa and that he would love to know her and Lily. So we talked (me mostly) about him and the picture (He on chair. He have pillow.). During the conversation she would ask or say "That Grandpa" and I'd tell her that yes that is your Grandpa and My Daddy, Mommy's Daddy. I told her that I will tell her and Lily all sorts of stories someday about my Daddy and that he was a nice guy. His name was John.

Later she saw the 2 pictures of my Dad and Lee's Dad on the wall and asked "Who that?" (pointing towards Walter's picture). So Lee told her that it is a picture of his Dad. Daddy's Dad. She then pointed to the other picture (my dad) and asked "Who that?". That's Mommy's daddy. That might have confused her a little since it's a picture of my Dad at a year or maybe around age 2 (he's wearing short sleeves and shorts and was born in the winter). I didn't hear the whole conversation since I was busy cleaning up at this point.

I have to admit that as much as I have prepared myself for this conversation, it was still hard to have. There are so many things that I want to tell them about my Dad and how much I loved him and how cheated I feel that he never got to see or do. I hold tight to my weird belief that somehow my Dad knows that these beautiful little girls exist and that he's watching out over all of us. The conversation though was alot easier than I thought it would be. I kept it to what they wanted to know (Lily was on my lap eating and listening mostly). Answered the questions that were asked and didn't give any extra info that they wouldn't understand at this point. It was a good icebreaker for all of us. We'll see where it goes from here.