So tired

I am tired... exhausted really... not in the I'm not getting enough sleep category but the I'm doing what feels like everything exhausted category..

Case in point.. we are taking the girls on a vacation soon to see their relatives in California.. I have been running around trying to get everything ready.. figuring out clothing for the girls..keeping track of the weather... trying to figure out transportation to and from the airport. How to do this trip logistically..getting all the fun new items for the girls to use while on the plane. I am exhausted from trying to figure this all out..

Also case in point... I took the girls over to my brother's house so that my SIL could cut the girls' hair for me.. and play... noone got a nap (and it was sorely needed)..thankfully the girls fell asleep on the way home moments after we left but they only got about 30 min max of sleep (not truly enough).. Then when we got home they both woke up and I would up giving them a nice warm bath to calm them down and then let them run around the apartment in their pull up training pants and watch OnDemand programs of The Wiggles. Lee helped me get the girls from the car to the apartment and helped with the bath but hasn't done the dishes that are in the sink like he promised he would when I left for my brother's house this morning.. which means that after the girls go to bed and before I go out to spend some time with my friends from HS at a local bar that I might have to do them myself... maybe I should go on strike and not do them.. unfortunately the girls' dishes and cups are in there and we really really need them to be clean.

I realize that Lee is making an effort.. the other day I almost posted on a board that I frequent that he wasn't pulling his weight and all I really wanted was some acknowledgement that I have been doing alot lately and some "Thank yous" for getting stuff done when I realized that i had been getting the acknowledgement that I was craving so I deleted the post before I even pressed Submit. I also realize that we both are doing better at not starting petty fights with each other since in the past we have done this when things start to get tense. A friend of mine recently posted a reminder of the 5.5.5.5.5 plan.. Before getting upset with your spouse ask yourself will what you are mad about matter in 5 minutes, 5 hours, 5 days, 5 weeks or 5 months? Once you get a No then you can drop the issue. Pretty good advice.. and btw... my anger at Lee didn't get very far since I currently can hear him washing the dishes that are in the sink as I type...