It's the little things..

Anna was so adorable this morning... I could hear her over the monitor this morning calling for us.. So I went in to get her and she spotted her baby doll, so we went and got her baby and changed her diaper before heading to the bathroom (Mommy needed to pee badly) where she saw her toothbrush and started chanting "Teeth". So I got her toothbrush and gave it to her.. and she brushed her teeth while I got her and Lily's milk cups ready. Since Lily was still sleeping she and I went into my bed and hung out with Daddy for a little while till I figured it was time to get Miss Lily up and going. It truly is the little things that make me happy lately.

Cute Kid isms..

Ok I just had to share some of the cute stuff that Anna and Lily have been doing lately..

Tonight Anna finally figured out how to climb up into her booster chair at the kitchen table and buckle herself in... She actually already knew how to buckle herself in but the climbing into her seat part is totally new to me (us). The best part was that she decided to go through the mail that was on the table.

This morning Lily and Anna found the baby doll strollers that I had gotten the girls yesterday at BRU... it was so adorable to see them giving their babies rides in the stroller.. I think that they Love the strollers.

They are seriously ADDICTED to Elmo. Lily has a really bad case of Elmo addiction. She took Elmo to daycare twice this week and we almost left him there by mistake on the second day. That would not have been good at all. Anna is addicted to watching Elmo on the TV or the computer. We seriously almost had a huge screaming fit (her not me) over my making her go to bed instead of me trying to find anything Elmo for her to watch or see.

New Year Wrap Up

Happy New Year... I apologize for not really blogging for a while.. Christmas went really well this year. The girls absolutely loved the dolls that Lee and I had gotten them and have barely put them down at all since they got them. We finally got the tree down and outside today (thank you Lee for doing that for us).. having a real tree was great and something that I have sorely missed for the past few years... it was nice to have the space (ok in the landing outside our door) this year and I think that I will miss it even though I've been dying to have our landing back.

I am hopeful that 2010 will be a good year filled with mostly good things that happen.. we deserve it after the awful year that 2009 was for us. Hopefully this coming year will bring new jobs as well as new adventures for us. I'll even go out on a limb and hope that 2010 will bring a change in our housing and that God willing and with hopefully new jobs that we will be able to afford to buy something that we won't mind living in for a really long time to come. In the meantime there are too many things to take care of around here. Maybe this will be the year that I finally go through the stuff that we have in the basement and do a huge purge and reorganization.

I survived today...

Today is the Anniversary of the day that Dad died... Nine years ago I just happened to be at Mom's when Steve called with the news that I never wanted to hear ever... Dad has had a heart attack and is at a hospital in Boston... you need to come.. Somehow I made it into Boston via the T and got to the hospital that Dad was at... Nine years later I still can remember being led into a small room by Steve and being told that Dad didn't make it... that our Dad was gone.. somehow we called Lee and told him and he was there so quickly... Nine years and it still hurts at times..

Today was tough for me.. thankfully the girls made it a slightly better day but that was after taking them to the library for Music time with my friend Meredith and after Lily had a total meltdown from the moment that we left the library till I got her home (we skipped daycare today) and held her for a while till she fell asleep and then melted down again as I tried to get her to take a nap in her crib and failed. I think somehow they knew that I needed them to make me laugh and smile today... and they did but it wasn't till they had been fed some dinner and I was eating mine. I could hear the laughing and giggling and it made me smile... I even got out the video camera and got some of the fun on film.. then later after they went to bed (easily I might add).. I pulled out the older tapes and watched a few and made notes on the contents so I know what is on the tapes that we have. It was nice to watch them and see how little they were then and to rewatch some of the firsts that we were able to record. I'll also admit that it was tough to watch too since there was some stuff that got recorded while the girls and I were at Mom's for a while. Stuff that I made sure to record for Lee's benefit since he wasn't there to see it first hand.

Still it amazes me that it's been 9 years. My therapist asked how things might be different for me if Dad was still around... it was an interesting question. I really couldn't even answer it even though it's something that I think about quite a bit. For all I know things could have been better but they also could have been much worse... it's probably the one thing that I don't want to know. I guess that's how it works out sometimes.