I feel like a broken record

because I know I've posted about this before.. but here I go again.

I MISS MY DAD... especially now. I swear that this has been the hardest part of the year to get through the past 7 years and I don't ever expect it to get easier.. well maybe someday when the girls are older.. It should be a great (wonderful ?) time of the year since most people are in the holiday spirit but this year I just don't have it in me to get overly excited. To put it bluntly.. Life just sucks right now. It's hard enough that Dad's birthday is the day after Christmas and he died 4 days into a new year so those couple of weeks are hard on me.. add PPD into that mix and well you have an unhappy Cheryl who is feeling cooped up in a too small apt with 2 babies that want to be mobile but can't figure out how to do that yet. I need to get out of Dodge.. and I have plans to do that tomorrow.. just to the movies and the mall for a couple of hours. Hopefully that will recharge my batteries enough to get me through to the new year.