Tonight I'm feeling the need to be here and typing.. mostly because I am having so many feelings lately about the start of Kindergarten. So with that said here are letters to my girls as they start going to school.
Dear Anna,
Hey there sweet girl. Tomorrow you start Kindergarten and get to go to the big kid school for the first time. I am so proud of you and I know that Daddy would be too. You are totally ready to rock in Kindergarten. You are a natural leader and I have a feeling that there are going to be so many notes home or phone calls about your behavior and bossiness. Then again you are a good friend and maybe those notes will tell me that you were so good that you earned a CARES sticker. I wish that Daddy were here with me watching you go to school with Lily. Unfortunately he's not here and you know why but it still breaks my heart that you'll never have him take you to Daddy/Daughter dances or get to hear how excited you are about a hundred million things that you have to tell me RIGHT NOW. I want you to know that you not only look like him but at times remind me of him in the things that you do and say. This is not a bad thing at all. It actually makes me happy that I still get to see him in you everyday. WE love you so much baby girl and yes I know that you are NOT A BABY anymore but you will always be my baby no matter how big you grow.
Love with lots of kisses and hugs,
Mommy
Dear Lily,
Hi there baby. You are such a big girl and I can't wait for you to go to Kindergarten tomorrow with Anna. You are so ready and I am proud of the girl that you are becoming and Daddy is too even though he's not here to see you anymore. You are such a gentle and caring person and make friends so easily. I look forward to hearing about all your adventures, listening to you sing all your new songs and hearing about your new "brothers". Remember that you need to use your words instead of hurting people by pinching and hitting since that isn't very nice to do. Daddy and I love you a lot and I wish that he was here to see his little buddy go off to the big kid school. I'm so glad that you are my little girl and you will always be my baby no matter how big you get.
Love you so much,
Mommy
Monday, August 26, 2013
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
More Updates
So I guess that I've been busy lately or not exactly sure what to say. I'll go with busy since that might be the easier explanation for my life at the moment.
I've been busy at work quite a bit and that is a really good thing especially since my contract got extended again till mid October. I was really nervous that it wouldn't get extended but apparently I had no reason to worry about that.
I also started seeing a new guy. I went on a couple of dates with other guys from one of my dating sites and yeah there are quite a few creeps out there. I also had a HS friend recommend a friend of hers that she thought might be a good person for me and yes he was nice but only a let's be friends type of nice.
The current guy is actually someone that I wouldn't have thought to be interested at all and truly wasn't on my radar either though if pressed I did think that he is nice looking and would be interesting to get to know better but I wasn't sure that it would happen. We actually got set up basically by a mutual friend to go to a movie together with other people and only one of the other people showed up which made for a slightly awkward night for me since the person that did show was the guy that I had most recently been trying to be in a relationship with and I was there with this other guy (that I had no clue was showing interest in me). Then the next day I got a message from the guy that I had been basically set up with asking if I wanted to hang out and chat more and maybe even go out some time. It took a little convincing on my part to make the leap but I did and I have been enjoying the experience so far. I really hope that although probably it will not a forever relationship that we will be together for a while and heck maybe minds will change on the possibly forever part. There are too many details to consider and work out at the moment though over time some of the details will work themselves out. I need to remember to be patient and let things work out for the best and lean on my support network when needed.
I'm still working on my sweater. The one that I started in January and was hoping to have finished by now. I do need to admit that I am almost there though. I have 6 more pattern rounds and then 12 rounds of ribbing before binding off and then finishing the sleeves and the neckline before declaring it done and giving it a bath and getting it blocked so I can wear it before Fall is here.
Here is what the sweater currently looks like (in case you were wondering). This was at 140 rounds and I've done 4 more rounds since I took this picture the other day.
One last update which probably deserves it's own post but I'll put it here for now. Three weeks from today (on August 27th) the girls will be starting Kindergarten. They seem to be excited but I think also a bit nervous about leaving the safety and security of Daycare. I need to take them shoe shopping this weekend at the mall and see about getting them a new outfit or two for the first couple of days of school. I also need to finish getting their backpacks ready and buy them some crayons and pencils for school use too since I don't remember there being any crayons or pencils on the list of supplies that I bought for them through the school itself.
First day of school is going to be a HUGE milestone for me. Our first real day of school with all the big kids and only Mommy there to see them off to school. No Daddy except in our hearts and minds. I know that I'll be ok but I will be missing having Lee here to share this day with me. Like I said, it's going to be a whole other post of it's own.
I've been busy at work quite a bit and that is a really good thing especially since my contract got extended again till mid October. I was really nervous that it wouldn't get extended but apparently I had no reason to worry about that.
I also started seeing a new guy. I went on a couple of dates with other guys from one of my dating sites and yeah there are quite a few creeps out there. I also had a HS friend recommend a friend of hers that she thought might be a good person for me and yes he was nice but only a let's be friends type of nice.
The current guy is actually someone that I wouldn't have thought to be interested at all and truly wasn't on my radar either though if pressed I did think that he is nice looking and would be interesting to get to know better but I wasn't sure that it would happen. We actually got set up basically by a mutual friend to go to a movie together with other people and only one of the other people showed up which made for a slightly awkward night for me since the person that did show was the guy that I had most recently been trying to be in a relationship with and I was there with this other guy (that I had no clue was showing interest in me). Then the next day I got a message from the guy that I had been basically set up with asking if I wanted to hang out and chat more and maybe even go out some time. It took a little convincing on my part to make the leap but I did and I have been enjoying the experience so far. I really hope that although probably it will not a forever relationship that we will be together for a while and heck maybe minds will change on the possibly forever part. There are too many details to consider and work out at the moment though over time some of the details will work themselves out. I need to remember to be patient and let things work out for the best and lean on my support network when needed.
I'm still working on my sweater. The one that I started in January and was hoping to have finished by now. I do need to admit that I am almost there though. I have 6 more pattern rounds and then 12 rounds of ribbing before binding off and then finishing the sleeves and the neckline before declaring it done and giving it a bath and getting it blocked so I can wear it before Fall is here.
Here is what the sweater currently looks like (in case you were wondering). This was at 140 rounds and I've done 4 more rounds since I took this picture the other day.
One last update which probably deserves it's own post but I'll put it here for now. Three weeks from today (on August 27th) the girls will be starting Kindergarten. They seem to be excited but I think also a bit nervous about leaving the safety and security of Daycare. I need to take them shoe shopping this weekend at the mall and see about getting them a new outfit or two for the first couple of days of school. I also need to finish getting their backpacks ready and buy them some crayons and pencils for school use too since I don't remember there being any crayons or pencils on the list of supplies that I bought for them through the school itself.
First day of school is going to be a HUGE milestone for me. Our first real day of school with all the big kids and only Mommy there to see them off to school. No Daddy except in our hearts and minds. I know that I'll be ok but I will be missing having Lee here to share this day with me. Like I said, it's going to be a whole other post of it's own.
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