Ugh Father's Day

This is the first year since Lee passed that I am not enthralled by the approach of Father's Day. This will be our 3rd one without Lee here but the first that the girls understand that their Daddy isn't here to celebrate it.

Last night I was on Facebook looking at pictures of Lee with Lily on my lap and she commented that she needs a new Daddy. I quickly told her that she still has her daddy but he's just not here and that he still loves her.

I feel awful for my girls that they got robbed by Lee dying when they were so small. They only got 2yrs and 11m with him and they probably won't remember very much about him as they grow up and the memories fade over time. I'm glad that I have so many pictures of him and so many stories that I can tell them about him but it still sucks that they won't ever know how goofy he was and how much he was looking forward to watching them grow into actual people and not be babies forever. He used to tell me how much he was looking forward to taking them camping when they got big enough and were out of diapers and able to go to the bathroom on their own. I guess that's something that I'll have to do with them instead and find a friend to go with us since I know very little about camping and how to go about it.

It will be interesting next year at this time of year how they wind up dealing with Father's Day since they'll be in Kindergarten and all the other kids will be most probably making all sorts of crafts for their dads or grandpas and my kids will have no one to make anything for. Though I guess that's a bridge to think about and cross later when we get to it eventually.